This morning as I read my morning devotion in Jesus Calling I was struck with the stark realization that my “backpack of life” has been getting very heavy. I have gotten very good at stuffing it full of moments that I will refer to as “Not Being My Best Self.” Those moments consist of poor decisions I have made, memories of the times that I have hurt people both intentionally and unintentionally, times when my vocabulary has been filled with venomous words that were designed to bring people down and not to build them up, times of selfishness, times when I neglected those that I love, things that I should have done and things that I did not do. Each of those moments adding weight to my journey of life. Each of those moments an epic failure in my thinking that “I” can do better. “I” can be better. “I“can think better.
Oh, THAT DEVIL!!! He sure is tricky. Look at how he has encouraged me to fill my backpack with memories and ideas that place focus on me and what I have or haven’t done and distracted me from taking those “”Not Being My Best Self” moments to my Savior and laying my weighted load at His feet and leaving it there, focusing on what He has done.When our sinful nature leads us to focus on ourself instead of our Savior and His forgiveness we are robbed the peace that His grace and forgiveness provide us. Our load is not lite and there is no peace.
How much weight do you carry? Is your “backpack of life” filled with past sins that you can not forgive yourself for? Is it filled with thoughts, looking back and wishing you could undo decisions or actions you wished you could change? How much energy do you spend in the past or worrying about the future? How heavy is your load?
Brothers and Sisters in Christ, because we are sinful humans we will continue to make mistakes. To think that we could live an error-free life is faulty thinking. (In the mental health world we would call that maladaptive thinking) Our God is able to take even our worst mistakes and bring good out of them. Our mistakes, regrets, and poor decisions can be a blessing reminding us of our dependence on our Lord and teaching us how to better love those around us.
Worries, hurts, and regrets are heavy when we try to bear the burden on our own and place our focus on ourself. Trust your Savior. Talk to your Savior. Take your burdens to Him. Let Him carry the load and don’t pick your load back up after giving it to Jesus. Leave your load with Him. He tells us in Mathew 11:28-29, 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Unpack your “backpack of life” lay your heavy worries, regrets, and hurts at Jesus’ feet. Lay in His presence with your lightened load and rest. Feel His peace. Feel His love. Feel His Grace.
Blessings my friends,